God is powerful

Well I just want to start off by saying that last blog was just me having a down time.I get that way quite often and it helps to talk to someone. Well that someone I had been used to talking too is away at boot camp right now for 10 weeks.

We are what you I guess you would call Bible buddies. We pick each other up and keep each other going. I have never met him in person, just online. Its amazing you can meet someone like that online and feel as if you have known that person your entire life. That is what it feels like for me. His name is Owen and he lives in Loxley, Alabama. Hopefully one day I will meet him in person. Its amazing that God can allow that to happen. God is great in that way.

I know that God lives inside of me. The way I know is that clear out the blue when I get down he appears to me in music. The best music in the world. Music that praises his name. Some of that music is on my profile. God talks to people in all different ways. That is the way that God talks to me and it took me a long time to understand and learn that. I am so grateful for that.

Also posting blogs is kinda a way of talking to God. That is why I post. I want to share God with everyone and show them the light that he has shown me. His salvation is great.

Going back to my little saying. If one does not have God than what does one have? Its a simple little saying that keeps me going. How does a lost soul answer that question?

God is so amazingly great. Loving and caring. His mercy is so great. Thank you God. Thank you for everything you have given me. Thank you for all the amazing people that you surround me with. We all need each other. Together we stand but divided we fall. We must stand together and let your light shine. Thank you God.

Confused

Will someone please explain to me why God allows pain and suffering when he is has the power to not cause pain and suffering. God can be your friend when things are going good but when times turn bad God goes away from you can doesn't want nothing to do with you. Why does he do this? It makes no sense. You would think he would be there with you when you need him the most. I am questioning why God does some of the things he does. It is okay because I am telling God my truth feelings and in the end this should pull me closer to him. I still believe in him but I have doubts about the way he runs things. He has never done anything great with my life and I have been so happy the last 2 weeks but tonight had a complete meltdown because I am going throught some really tough times and it isn't getting any better. I thought it was but it just hasn't gotten any better. It all started when my Granny died sudden of cancer on New Year's Eve. She was the person I was the most closest too in my life. I thought over this past couple of weeks I had gotten over losing her only to have this huge meltdown tonight when I got in a fight with my brother. Well things still suck for me right now. I am too tired to go to sleep as I have been running on only about 4 hours of sleep because of the time chance and well it's all crazy. I need to go to sleep and sleep it off but I just don't want to because I feel like it will do any good. Well I guess I am doing rambing. I hate when I ramble. I hate alot of things about life right now. It's all stuff that shouldn't me shit in life but does because after all we are just human but I am a very lonely person right now. Well I guess I will end this before I say something I proabably shouldn't. God please help me.

Edit: Well God tests our faith by putting himself away from us in the times we need him the most. It really, really hurts. I have never lost faith in him but I do question him. It is all about testing us. God is great, God is good, let us raise his name in praise, Amen.

God

We aren't suppose to judge people. God is the only one that is suppose to judge. One of the reasons I dislike judges. But on the flip side we all judge in one way or another weather we mean to or not. It is just human nature.

Does anyone know why we live? What the purpose of life is? The purpose of life is to bring glory to God. That is the only reason he put us here. He didn't put us here for our joy and glory but to bring him glory and praise.

Now that being said people tend to think that the only time you can bring glory to God is at church which is untrue. In fact you can bring glory to God in everything you do if you do it with him in mind. Like right now. I am bringing glory to God by sharing what I have learned with you. God doesn't want to be kept a secret and kept in only church.

The great thing about my high school was that my principals were God loving people so even though most school did away with pray we didn't. We had a pray or moment of silent everyday.

But back to talking about the glory of God. I used to feel embrassed about showing my love to God. Hell even in church I used to not like to sing out and pray out loud in praising him. Well tonight I let myself go and for the first time since God took over my life I actually was praising him whole heartly. You know it feels good. It really does. To feel the love around you of God.

I mean it doesn't get any better than that. Hopefully I continue to grow in God's word and allow him to shine his love all throughout me to where I am bursting with the love and joy of God. This ain't my live anymore. I cannot live for myself. I must live for God and only through him will you have true joy on earth.