I am at a loss for words to describe how God is moving in my life right now. He is showing me his glory right now and I cannot get enough. He is letting me experience him in unbelievable ways right now.
In the past couple of weeks I have attended Daystar for two Sunday's and two Wednesday's and all I can say is WOW! He is moving on in me right now. From Jerry Lawson to Derek Dale to Ben Murray to Dan Watson and many, many, others, God is working miracles and making his presence known. I am so incredibly blessed to be at Daystar right now and experiencing such incredibly glory.
Now don't get me wrong, I have been very blessed in my time at St. John's. Pastor Bob, John Richter, Steve Wood and Ben Karwoski and many others have just been incredible to me. I love them for all that they are and everything they stand for and represent, but I just feel like right now my time to experience God's full presence and glory and to continue to grow in my walk and go where he is leading me I must become a member at Daystar and become a part of a new Dream Team. I will miss them all and many others that I cannot name here or I would never get to the end of this post.
Thank you God for leading me to Daystar right now and letting me experience you in new ways. Thank you for giving me the guidance necessary to be receptive to you and your ways and the courage to step out on faith in this next step of my walk with you.
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
Thursday, May 15, 2014
My Big Decision
I feel like I have a great decision lying in front of me. I feel like God could possibly be leading me in different direction than the one I've been on for the past two years. God opened to me a new door in March of 2012 when he introduced me to St. John's church.
It was definitely where I was supposed to be at that time. Lots of healing took place in my life and my walk with Christ was renewed. I met lots of incredible new people that have become very important to me. Some have become real close companions. People that I am forever grateful to for everything they have done for me.
Now I feel like it may be time for me to make another move. The past Sunday I attended Daystar so I could spend some time with some different close friends in my life. But I experienced God in a new way. It was not the first time I had attended Daystar but it was indeed the first time I had experienced God's presence at Daystar. It was the first time I felt like I belonged. Even though you could count on one hand the number of people that I knew it just felt right.
Last night I attended Daystar on a Wednesday night for the first time. Incredible! Absolutely touching! Words are not enough. God is definitely doing something special at Daystar. I have experienced it and want to experience it more. I think God is pulling me in that direction. This is a big decision that I have to make. I need God's guidance in making this decision of where my church membership should be at. So please pray for me to make the right decision.
It was definitely where I was supposed to be at that time. Lots of healing took place in my life and my walk with Christ was renewed. I met lots of incredible new people that have become very important to me. Some have become real close companions. People that I am forever grateful to for everything they have done for me.
Now I feel like it may be time for me to make another move. The past Sunday I attended Daystar so I could spend some time with some different close friends in my life. But I experienced God in a new way. It was not the first time I had attended Daystar but it was indeed the first time I had experienced God's presence at Daystar. It was the first time I felt like I belonged. Even though you could count on one hand the number of people that I knew it just felt right.
Last night I attended Daystar on a Wednesday night for the first time. Incredible! Absolutely touching! Words are not enough. God is definitely doing something special at Daystar. I have experienced it and want to experience it more. I think God is pulling me in that direction. This is a big decision that I have to make. I need God's guidance in making this decision of where my church membership should be at. So please pray for me to make the right decision.
Monday, May 12, 2014
Children Are A Blessing
Children are such a blessing from God! I love the way I am wired. I love the way being around and interacting with children makes me feel. The incredible joy I get from them. I am at a loss of words to describe my joy!
God has planned deep within me a desire to be a blessing in the lives of children. It is why I am taking this road he has provided me with that will eventually lead me to being an elementary school teacher.
Yes I have struggles in knowing that I still have a long road ahead of me to get to where I want to receive the fruit of this seed he has planted within me, but as long as I keep my focus on Him in this whole journey, I will realize a dream.
I also have another dream to one day become a parent. I mean God has already blessed me two the names for two girls that I want to be a father to, Rilee Chastin Bliss and Alexa Baylee Bliss. It is completely crazy that I even have these names in my head right now considering I still have yet to meet the beautiful, Godly woman God has waiting for me.
God has planned deep within me a desire to be a blessing in the lives of children. It is why I am taking this road he has provided me with that will eventually lead me to being an elementary school teacher.
Yes I have struggles in knowing that I still have a long road ahead of me to get to where I want to receive the fruit of this seed he has planted within me, but as long as I keep my focus on Him in this whole journey, I will realize a dream.
I also have another dream to one day become a parent. I mean God has already blessed me two the names for two girls that I want to be a father to, Rilee Chastin Bliss and Alexa Baylee Bliss. It is completely crazy that I even have these names in my head right now considering I still have yet to meet the beautiful, Godly woman God has waiting for me.
Sunday, May 11, 2014
Producing Good Fruit
I really don't know what I'm doing right now. What are God's plans for my life? Why am I here? Why am I experiencing this heartache and pain? The loneliness of being single and feeling completely unloved? Have you ever wanted something so bad that it literally tears at your very soul? It has actually brought me to tears.
I see what other people have and I just want that for myself. I pray to God for it and he just keeps that door slammed shut. I wonder what he's waiting on. Why is there all this waiting? Time. Time is an evil word to me right now. I hate it. I don't like being told to wait on God's timing because God's timing isn't right now. It hasn't been right now for such a long time I feel like he will never say yes.
The really sad part to me is that no one understands my pain. No one understands why I want this so bad. I really wish someone would understand the pain and emptiness I feel right now. An emptiness that not even God is filling. I've tried and failed miserably to fill that emptiness on my own and that leads to nothing but self destruction. I promise you, learn from my mistakes, there is absolutely nothing you can do and have that can fill that loneliness. That empty feeling in the pit of your stomach. God has to fill it, but that requires you pursing him will all of your heart and soul. You can't haphazardly pursue God, because that just doesn't work. It's either all or nothing.
Maybe eventually God will open that door for me. I attended Daystar church today and Jerry Lawson was preaching on this very issue today. About how we try to fill our life with jobs, money, cars, personal rewards, but all that means nothing if it's not Godly fruit. I want to have Godly fruit coming out in my life. I want to know what it feels like to have God pouring out of me and for others to see it and recognize it for what it is, God.
I'm guessing that's what God is waiting on. He's waiting on me to get to that point, then he will open up all these other doors such as jobs, relationships, happiness and joy. So I ask you tonight, pray for me to find my way to the point where God completely consumes me and I produce Godly fruit. The good fruit.
I see what other people have and I just want that for myself. I pray to God for it and he just keeps that door slammed shut. I wonder what he's waiting on. Why is there all this waiting? Time. Time is an evil word to me right now. I hate it. I don't like being told to wait on God's timing because God's timing isn't right now. It hasn't been right now for such a long time I feel like he will never say yes.
The really sad part to me is that no one understands my pain. No one understands why I want this so bad. I really wish someone would understand the pain and emptiness I feel right now. An emptiness that not even God is filling. I've tried and failed miserably to fill that emptiness on my own and that leads to nothing but self destruction. I promise you, learn from my mistakes, there is absolutely nothing you can do and have that can fill that loneliness. That empty feeling in the pit of your stomach. God has to fill it, but that requires you pursing him will all of your heart and soul. You can't haphazardly pursue God, because that just doesn't work. It's either all or nothing.
Maybe eventually God will open that door for me. I attended Daystar church today and Jerry Lawson was preaching on this very issue today. About how we try to fill our life with jobs, money, cars, personal rewards, but all that means nothing if it's not Godly fruit. I want to have Godly fruit coming out in my life. I want to know what it feels like to have God pouring out of me and for others to see it and recognize it for what it is, God.
I'm guessing that's what God is waiting on. He's waiting on me to get to that point, then he will open up all these other doors such as jobs, relationships, happiness and joy. So I ask you tonight, pray for me to find my way to the point where God completely consumes me and I produce Godly fruit. The good fruit.
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