Knowing Someone You Love Is Dying

Hey guys please just listen to me. I need someone to talk to. Well here goes. I don't know why life works the way it does but it just does. Nobody understands it but God and that just doesn't help the pain any. Well what I'm trying to say is we just found out my grandma, or granny as the whole family calls her, has stage 4 stomach cancer. Meaning that it is too far gone to be saved. I mean she could just die any day now or could live for who knows how long. But she's in really bad shape right now cause she can't eat anything so they are gonna have to put a feeding tube in her. The doctor said that a man had the same problem and they brought him 14 more months to live. I sure would like to know that I had 14 more months with my granny. I don't understand why this has to happen to my granny. She is the glue that holds the whole family together. Without her the whole family is a mess and don't know what to do. I really don't know what is gonna happen. Well just keep her in your prays and we'll just have to see what happens. Thanks for listening.
Big T

Home Sweet Home

I can't wait till I move back home. I'm so excited. Only 2 more weeks and I'll be back home in Bammer where I belong. I can't wait to see my friends that I have missed so much. :)

Good and Bad Days

If I could be like that. What would I do? If I could be with my friends. I wish I was with each and everyone one of yall right now. Yall are all going to school and getting towards goals that yall have set in yall's life and I'm here by myself spinning my wheels. Not going anywhere in life. Not doing nothing with my life. Not knowing what to think, feel or do. Not knowing what lies around the next corner. Not knowing what my purpose is right now. I feel like falling down. I feel like giving up but as long as I know you guys are out there supporting me than I can't give up and I must go on. If I could just have the chance to go to school and make something of my life than I wouldn't be so down. If I had the chance to be with my friends who could help me through the hard time in my life. I was just starting to get my life together and than bang we move and right now I can't just leave my mom because she needs me to help her until she gets on her feet and gets everything setteled. But it's hard because one step foward and two steps backward means we ain't getting anywhere. GOD I am so lonely and depressed. Sorry to bore you with my horrible life story and I know no ones life is perfect but I just need someway to express myself and this is it. With that being said I end this whatever you want to call it. Well I have good days and bad days like everyone else but after typing this I notice that I feel alot better. I guess it's because I feel like I am talking to someone and well it has made me feel better. I guess you guys will see alot of blogs because it makes me feel better to get it out of my head and to put it into words and than to read it and to have others read it knowing that they probably feel the same way. It makes me happy. So now I'm happy. Yeah. Big T.

Everything That Matters To Me

Everything that matters to me is everything I have around me. My GOD, family and friends. Without everything that matters to me I would be lost. As long as you have faith than nothing, no matter how bad your day seems or no matter how bad you think your life is when you hold everything that matters close to you, you will always rise above it to shine brighter than the brightest star. Just want to say I love my GOD and family and friends. Thank you so much for all of your support throughout all the years and as we have all gone in our separate ways in life we will always be friends forever and always.

Thank you, Big T