Dealing with Death

Hey guys. Man I am just having a bad night so I got on here to ramble. It has been a week since the passing of my granny and words can't desrible the emptyness I feel. Most people are able to deal with death because they have a GF/BF or wife/husband to fill the empty feeling but I don't. My granny never got to see me make a life of my own.Those 6 months living in South Carolina just about killed me and let me know just how much I was taking for granted and well that is why I hurt so bad. I come back home and those couple of days I had with her were some of the happiest days of my life and than just like that it is all ripped away from me.I mean starting with last Wednesday which was the day she had a viewing everything seemed okay and it seemed as if I was gonna be able to deal with this but last night lying in bed after watching what I had watched it hit me some more. I had brought the Gators basketball SI for my mom and my granny said she was gonna buy the one for football if the Gators won. Well they did but my granny wasn't here to see it and isn't here to buy it. Tonight I here George Strait's Carrying Your Love With Me and I absolutely lost it. That was the song that always makes me think of her.I need some input guys. Do you guys think I'm dealing with this?