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Many times we get caught up in our everyday lives and forget the most important part of them. God. Our Lord and Savior. We forget that we aren't put on this earth for the pleasure that most of us enjoy. We are put on this earth to worship the Lord. Not just any Lord but our Lord. The all mighty powerful one.

I'm not trying to single anyone out because I am more guilty of this than anyone else. It's not until I reach the breaking point and think I can't handle all the loneliness that God grabs me back the neck and gives me a good wake up call. Then it all comes rushing back to me. The reasons I asked him into my heart. The reasons he put me in the situations that he put me in. The reasons that certain people were brought into my life. To touch me. To show me. To teach me the way. I take everyone who has ever helped me for granted. I won't try to list them all because if I did I would surely leave someone out and I don't want to leave anyone out. I can say that everyone that I know and consider a dear friend has helped me out a ton. You all know who you are. Even if you don't think you have touched me you have in some way. Many days when all I needed was a hug or just a hello you all were there for me. Many of you touched me on a much deeper level that you will never understand. Even those that have already left us and I didn't realize it until it was too late. I wanna say thank you. I wish I could say that to those others before they left us. I'm sure they are up there understanding and listening to me and are watching me right now.

Whenever you get down in the dumps and feel like you can't take it anymore just remember that our Lord will never leave nor forsake us. He is always there by our sides in the toughest of times. I read that two things can happen in your trials. You can either grow closer to the Lord or push away from the Lord. I think I have finally learned to grow closer to the Lord during the tough times instead of pushing away. The Lord does not say good comes out of all things. He says all things working together for good for those who are his child. Just remember that even if something happens and you can't find the good in it then chances are there probably isn't any good in that particular thing but it's a part of his plan which is for good. That is when we have a decision to make, draw closer to God or push away from him? Please choose to draw closer to God.

I guess that's all for now. Thanks for reading this.
Big T

Hey Guys

Hey guys. I am glad to be back. My internet connection was cutoff and I have just got it turned back on. Sorry to be out of commission for so long but everything is great now.

About Me

I just wanna tell you guys a little bit about me. I like to think and have been told that I am a very nice guy. Although nice guys never get the chicks or at least that is the way it has been for me. Oh well. Enough about that.

I am a Christian and I ain't just saying that because it sounds cool. I really am. I was saved and baptisted in 2005. But I have grown a lot in my faith this year. God has put me through alot and I have learned to depend on him. It has made me a stronger person. All you have to do is read my other posts just to know what I have through. Well moving on to other things.

I like sports. I would say I'm a sports fanatic. I love to play pickup games of any sport but I don't have a lick of talent to my name. It doesn't matter too much because I got brains and know the sports of baseball and football inside and out. Baseball is my favorite sport but football is the best sport of all to watch. Sometimes watching baseball can be very boring if your team (Atlanta Braves) is getting kicked around the field.

I don't have much to cheer about on the pro football side of things either being an Atlanta Falcons fan. Yeah Michael Vick this and Michael Vick that. I am as sick of this mess as the next guy. Will football season start already so we can talk about actual football on the field.

It's a good thing I got the Auburn Tigers to fall back on. WAR EAGLE!!! Auburn tends to get overlooked and doesn't get the respect I feel they have earned over the time since Tommy Tuberville has been head coach, especially since the undefeated season of 2004. Did you know that no SEC team has a better SEC record than Auburn since 2004?

Yet Auburn is constantly overlooked it seems. They are coming off an 11-2 season and that idiot Phil Steele says Auburn is the 41st best team in nation. I wanna know what that guy is smoking, cause it has to be some strong stuff. I am a realist Auburn fan and with Auburn's schedule for this year I expect 9 wins this year with potential losses being to Arkansas, LSU and Florida or Georgia. I mean Tuberville has raised up expectations that much for the plainsmen.

I like other stuff too like video games and the internet as you can tell but sports is what I am all about. Hopefully people will learn and see that God needs to come first. I'm not perfect by any means. I have my flaws like rather doing sports than going to church sometimes. Yeah it's not right but after all we are all only human. God forgives us of our sins because he loves us. I guess that is why I named this blog Love of God.

Well that is just a little bit about me. If you wanna know anything else about the man behind the blog hit me up on AIM. My SN is ATigers11. I am also on Facebook.

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=734400529

I hope you all enjoy the blogs and take them to heart. Everything done is for the glory of God.

Joyful

I am really joyful right now. Just knowing peaceful mindset I have right now. I wish it were like this all the time. It isn't because living in this world is just too tough and just because you know God and just because he lives inside of you, doesn't mean everyday is gonna be great and easy. It is just the way it is when you deal with so many who refuse to accept the great gift of being with our creator after this life here on earth is over. I pray and ask that if you don't know the Lord than please get to know him and ask him into your heart. It won't instantly make life here on earth perfect but it will give you the mindset of knowing that once this short life on earth is over you will spend all of entenity in Heaven with the Lord. I hope all my friends and who takes the time to read this and who doesn't know the Lord gets right with him because I would love to see all of you in Heaven someday.

Dealing with Death (3 months later)

I have learned that dealing with death really, really sucks. It's hard. It's just something us as humans have no mindset to understand. We can try all we want to, to understand but only God understands the pain we go through when dealing with death. Still that doesn't make it any easier. We just have to know that God wouldn't give us more than we could handle.

I never thought I would make it this long. But here I am. Some days are better than others. But along the way I have found a happiness and peace in God that I wish I had found a whole long time ago. Maybe it was God's plan to have me not find it until now. I may look back on this time years from now and say that this might have been the best thing to happen to me. I know it's ridiculous to think that something good would come out of losing someone you love. But God does everything for good. I just have to keep that positive attitude.

I don't think you ever really get over it. You just know that live goes on and the world keeps spinning. All I can say is it's getting better all the time. But I would give anything to have one more day.

God is powerful

Well I just want to start off by saying that last blog was just me having a down time.I get that way quite often and it helps to talk to someone. Well that someone I had been used to talking too is away at boot camp right now for 10 weeks.

We are what you I guess you would call Bible buddies. We pick each other up and keep each other going. I have never met him in person, just online. Its amazing you can meet someone like that online and feel as if you have known that person your entire life. That is what it feels like for me. His name is Owen and he lives in Loxley, Alabama. Hopefully one day I will meet him in person. Its amazing that God can allow that to happen. God is great in that way.

I know that God lives inside of me. The way I know is that clear out the blue when I get down he appears to me in music. The best music in the world. Music that praises his name. Some of that music is on my profile. God talks to people in all different ways. That is the way that God talks to me and it took me a long time to understand and learn that. I am so grateful for that.

Also posting blogs is kinda a way of talking to God. That is why I post. I want to share God with everyone and show them the light that he has shown me. His salvation is great.

Going back to my little saying. If one does not have God than what does one have? Its a simple little saying that keeps me going. How does a lost soul answer that question?

God is so amazingly great. Loving and caring. His mercy is so great. Thank you God. Thank you for everything you have given me. Thank you for all the amazing people that you surround me with. We all need each other. Together we stand but divided we fall. We must stand together and let your light shine. Thank you God.

Confused

Will someone please explain to me why God allows pain and suffering when he is has the power to not cause pain and suffering. God can be your friend when things are going good but when times turn bad God goes away from you can doesn't want nothing to do with you. Why does he do this? It makes no sense. You would think he would be there with you when you need him the most. I am questioning why God does some of the things he does. It is okay because I am telling God my truth feelings and in the end this should pull me closer to him. I still believe in him but I have doubts about the way he runs things. He has never done anything great with my life and I have been so happy the last 2 weeks but tonight had a complete meltdown because I am going throught some really tough times and it isn't getting any better. I thought it was but it just hasn't gotten any better. It all started when my Granny died sudden of cancer on New Year's Eve. She was the person I was the most closest too in my life. I thought over this past couple of weeks I had gotten over losing her only to have this huge meltdown tonight when I got in a fight with my brother. Well things still suck for me right now. I am too tired to go to sleep as I have been running on only about 4 hours of sleep because of the time chance and well it's all crazy. I need to go to sleep and sleep it off but I just don't want to because I feel like it will do any good. Well I guess I am doing rambing. I hate when I ramble. I hate alot of things about life right now. It's all stuff that shouldn't me shit in life but does because after all we are just human but I am a very lonely person right now. Well I guess I will end this before I say something I proabably shouldn't. God please help me.

Edit: Well God tests our faith by putting himself away from us in the times we need him the most. It really, really hurts. I have never lost faith in him but I do question him. It is all about testing us. God is great, God is good, let us raise his name in praise, Amen.