Dealing with Death (3 months later)

I have learned that dealing with death really, really sucks. It's hard. It's just something us as humans have no mindset to understand. We can try all we want to, to understand but only God understands the pain we go through when dealing with death. Still that doesn't make it any easier. We just have to know that God wouldn't give us more than we could handle.

I never thought I would make it this long. But here I am. Some days are better than others. But along the way I have found a happiness and peace in God that I wish I had found a whole long time ago. Maybe it was God's plan to have me not find it until now. I may look back on this time years from now and say that this might have been the best thing to happen to me. I know it's ridiculous to think that something good would come out of losing someone you love. But God does everything for good. I just have to keep that positive attitude.

I don't think you ever really get over it. You just know that live goes on and the world keeps spinning. All I can say is it's getting better all the time. But I would give anything to have one more day.

Dealing with Death

Hey guys. Man I am just having a bad night so I got on here to ramble. It has been a week since the passing of my granny and words can't desrible the emptyness I feel. Most people are able to deal with death because they have a GF/BF or wife/husband to fill the empty feeling but I don't. My granny never got to see me make a life of my own.Those 6 months living in South Carolina just about killed me and let me know just how much I was taking for granted and well that is why I hurt so bad. I come back home and those couple of days I had with her were some of the happiest days of my life and than just like that it is all ripped away from me.I mean starting with last Wednesday which was the day she had a viewing everything seemed okay and it seemed as if I was gonna be able to deal with this but last night lying in bed after watching what I had watched it hit me some more. I had brought the Gators basketball SI for my mom and my granny said she was gonna buy the one for football if the Gators won. Well they did but my granny wasn't here to see it and isn't here to buy it. Tonight I here George Strait's Carrying Your Love With Me and I absolutely lost it. That was the song that always makes me think of her.I need some input guys. Do you guys think I'm dealing with this?

Knowing Someone You Love Is Dying

Hey guys please just listen to me. I need someone to talk to. Well here goes. I don't know why life works the way it does but it just does. Nobody understands it but God and that just doesn't help the pain any. Well what I'm trying to say is we just found out my grandma, or granny as the whole family calls her, has stage 4 stomach cancer. Meaning that it is too far gone to be saved. I mean she could just die any day now or could live for who knows how long. But she's in really bad shape right now cause she can't eat anything so they are gonna have to put a feeding tube in her. The doctor said that a man had the same problem and they brought him 14 more months to live. I sure would like to know that I had 14 more months with my granny. I don't understand why this has to happen to my granny. She is the glue that holds the whole family together. Without her the whole family is a mess and don't know what to do. I really don't know what is gonna happen. Well just keep her in your prays and we'll just have to see what happens. Thanks for listening.
Big T