Dealing with Death (3 months later)

I have learned that dealing with death really, really sucks. It's hard. It's just something us as humans have no mindset to understand. We can try all we want to, to understand but only God understands the pain we go through when dealing with death. Still that doesn't make it any easier. We just have to know that God wouldn't give us more than we could handle.

I never thought I would make it this long. But here I am. Some days are better than others. But along the way I have found a happiness and peace in God that I wish I had found a whole long time ago. Maybe it was God's plan to have me not find it until now. I may look back on this time years from now and say that this might have been the best thing to happen to me. I know it's ridiculous to think that something good would come out of losing someone you love. But God does everything for good. I just have to keep that positive attitude.

I don't think you ever really get over it. You just know that live goes on and the world keeps spinning. All I can say is it's getting better all the time. But I would give anything to have one more day.